Several weeks ago I was tagged by the Vixen Kitten. Now I am pretty new to this blogging stuff, so it is with some trepidation that I do this. So here is my take on the list of 8's.
8 things I am looking forward to:
1. THe holiday weekend.
2. Seeing old friends.
3. THe smell of L when she hugs and nuzzles my neck.
4. SPending time with my kids, even though they drive me crazy.
5. Bottleing my most recent batch of homebrew (Blackberry Wheat. It is an experiment that could go horribly wrong or be fantastic.
6. Harvesting veggies from the garden.
7. making love to L.
8. A quiet weekend at home without any commmittments or unexpected issues.
8 things I did yesterday:
1. worked.
2. Fought with L.
3. Helped clean the kitchen.
4. Made up with L.
5. RCame to an understanding about my own insecurities and fears.
6. Took a walk for my own health and well being.
7. It was a slow day for me.
8 things I wish I could do:
1. Not worry about finances so much.
2. Change someones job, so they didn't have to put up with some much BS.
3. GO on a long vacation with L and without being bothered by irresponsible adult children.
4. Never have to worry about my kids being safe and healthy.
5. Go back to Russia with my children and show them where they were adopted.
6. Be more understanding and tolerant.
7. Win Powerball
8. Have the luxary of helpling those who need it the most, especially family, without it being a strain on us.
8 shows I watch: NCIS, ER, Food Network, Discovery CHannel, DIY network, History CHannel, Weather, MOvies.
8 People I'm tagging:
1. VK
2. Samsmomma
3. Southern Vixen
4. Frank
Sorry I dont have a lot of friends.....LOL
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Tuesday, May 19, 2009
Wednesday, August 6, 2008
Good Morning Campers......
Well the medical crisis from yesterday was went from bad, to potentially worse, back to just bad. Suffice it to say a pregnancy test was involved and even though it came back negative and we all breathed a collective sigh of relief, the fact remains that a pregnancy test had to be administered at all was enough to reinforce my thoughts from yesterday.
THe verdict is still out on the kidney issue though and while there needs to be some serious investigatoin of the issue by trained professionals, the chances of that happening in the forseeable future are pretty slim.
On another note.....
I have this uneasy feeling about things with L. She is naturally private and doesn't open up very easily. My natural curiousity and inate ability to read people is usually right on, but she continually assures me that nothing is wrong and that i need to relax and not worry. Well, I do worry. I worry that she is holding back or weighing her options to move on, based on my disdain for her children's lifestyle choices and lack of personal responsibility. We had a long talk last night and both admited to each other that, despite being only 4 months from getting married, we have both had second thoughts about it, due to her kids.
Now I may bitch and moan alot about things, but generally, I am a fairly giving person and will help a brother out if they need it. And even though I complain and bitch about the kids, mine and hers, I usually come through with money, or support when they need it. But it wears thin when I feel like I am being taken advantage of and that they look upon her and I as an easy mark and a free ride. I keep telling myself and her too that when they finally take care of their own shit and quit relying on us to bail them out, then things will get better for all involved. But being Mom, she cant let go and give them the tough love that they need. She readily admits that she is an enabler and while she bitches just as much as i do about things and typically agrees with my assessment and opinon of what could or should be done; she for the most part, gives into to them. She has gotten better about it and I keep hoping that one of these days, the light bulb will go on and she will have her fill of things and tell them to sink or swim.
Well the medical crisis from yesterday was went from bad, to potentially worse, back to just bad. Suffice it to say a pregnancy test was involved and even though it came back negative and we all breathed a collective sigh of relief, the fact remains that a pregnancy test had to be administered at all was enough to reinforce my thoughts from yesterday.
THe verdict is still out on the kidney issue though and while there needs to be some serious investigatoin of the issue by trained professionals, the chances of that happening in the forseeable future are pretty slim.
On another note.....
I have this uneasy feeling about things with L. She is naturally private and doesn't open up very easily. My natural curiousity and inate ability to read people is usually right on, but she continually assures me that nothing is wrong and that i need to relax and not worry. Well, I do worry. I worry that she is holding back or weighing her options to move on, based on my disdain for her children's lifestyle choices and lack of personal responsibility. We had a long talk last night and both admited to each other that, despite being only 4 months from getting married, we have both had second thoughts about it, due to her kids.
Now I may bitch and moan alot about things, but generally, I am a fairly giving person and will help a brother out if they need it. And even though I complain and bitch about the kids, mine and hers, I usually come through with money, or support when they need it. But it wears thin when I feel like I am being taken advantage of and that they look upon her and I as an easy mark and a free ride. I keep telling myself and her too that when they finally take care of their own shit and quit relying on us to bail them out, then things will get better for all involved. But being Mom, she cant let go and give them the tough love that they need. She readily admits that she is an enabler and while she bitches just as much as i do about things and typically agrees with my assessment and opinon of what could or should be done; she for the most part, gives into to them. She has gotten better about it and I keep hoping that one of these days, the light bulb will go on and she will have her fill of things and tell them to sink or swim.
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